Posted this to IG and FB but trying to post stuff on the website of JBS, too.
Taking a hiatus from other people's baggage, indefinitely.
Been doing a lot of internal healing around this #breastcancer shizzzz. The breast is, among other things, energetically about nurturance. Taking on other people's pain was my jam for awhile I realized because I felt like I didn't deserve better. I thought because I grew up privileged I had my piece of the pie, and should act accordingly, let my guilt steer the ship. Keep myself small. Yes, it's intense and complicated and I have therapy so don't try to unravel it for me. My inner compass is the bomb diggety. Anyway, I woke up again to my own light, though, a few years ago. Thank my lucky stars (and the stars inside me).
My task now is staying open to my own light, keeping on building these strong (but loving and made-of-light) boundaries, and seeing my own light (the very one that connects us all) shine so much that I couldn't possibly let myself be a receptacle for other people's pain ever again. You don't smear garbage all over a pearl or a diamond (ok, maybe you do and that would be some sweet-ass performance art, but you get my metaphor).
My task is to ask to be nurtuted. To reach out and ask for what I want. To know that with this big effing light, I'm not just worthy of it, I deserve it. We all are and we all do.
#love #cartoon #baggage #whyiamawriternotanillustrator #boundaries #heartcenter #bananas
It's me, Jennifer Bernice (rhymes with "Furnace": it was my Granny's name) Sutkowski
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