I feel like Ned Ryerson in Groundhog Day, mentioning over and over what a dooooooozy everything is. Because it is. I had an old acquaintance tell me I hated my race the other day because I suggested white privilege is a thing. She wrote, “#mentalillness,” “fucking insane,” etc. And went after me for suggesting those of us with generational and amassed wealth have any responsibility. It was ugly. I unfriended her.
And “unfriended” is a whole other topic for another day – it's a pickle of a thing that we live in a world where our lexicon is embedded with shit like “unfriended,” because we are are in the Land of Zuckerberg, which was originally conceived to rate the hotness of his classmates. “Fruit of the poisonous tree” comes to mind these days again and again as well, even if it’s a legal term. It feels like it applies.
SO! While I’ve been doozy-ing it up over here I’ve also been trying to intentionally take the antidote to the doozy. Antidotes, really, because it is a cocktail of doozy-busters, such as working out every day, meditating twice a day, naps when needed, connecting with my peeps, somatic healing, therapy, spending as much time as possible outside just BEING, taking FB off my phone, leaving my phone out of the bedroom at night, dreaming up ways to ritually sacrifice my phone. And ice cream.
I’ve also been doing this practice lately as recommended to me by a favorite quantum healer and human in general. You write, “I see and feel ______” and fill in the blank with whatever future you want for the world we’re building. You write these visions three times in the morning, six in the afternoon and nine before bed. Yes, I am still taking action steps in the now, like signing petitions, spreading the word to get people to vote, having important conversations, sending letters to my senators, giving money to worthy causes, reading and learning, amplifying marginalized voices, etc.
I am also writing things like, “I see and feel a government chosen by and working for the people.” Or, “I see and feel a renewed earth living in harmony with her inhabitants.” And, “I see and feel systems built on compassion and practical measures to take care of those who need it the most.” Or, “I see and feel timelines and trauma healing.” Stuff like that.
And then I feel into those things and actually envision them as well. No, I don’t one hundred percent know that it’s working. I also don’t know that my vitamin D and green smoothies are working. But I know it feels better to go to bed at night with “I see and feel equality for ALL” in my sights than whatever the doom scrolling in the Land of Hot-or-Not Zuckerberg brings in.
Sending you love from my Howski of Sutkowski (and Heiner, because my husband and I are moving through this together). To the Land of You. May we get to remember our own home vibration FIRST and then see what we want to build from there.
So don't just stand there, bust a dooze. ;-)
JK. I know you're not just standing there. Even though just standing there or lying there or languishing in shredded cheese would all be perfect reactions to the dooze-fest as well.
It's me, Jennifer Bernice (rhymes with "Furnace": it was my Granny's name) Sutkowski
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